Have you ever had those weeks/months where you look at the world and life and ask yourself what the hell is going on?
Life has a way of happening all at once. In the last month it has been a whirlwind of highs and lows.
With all of the environmental catastrophes, while we’re lucky to have not have impacted us directly, the amount of people that have been affected gives me all the worries. Particularly the fires in Southern Alberta, while luckily no human lives were harmed during this event, Waterton is my second home and it pains me to see it effected so.
As well, sadly, Last week we also lost a family friend, my sister’s best friend that she knew since childhood lost her battle with cancer at the age of 34. We are all thankful to have known her and will continue to bring her along in our adventures, but miss her dearly. My heart hurts not only for the loss of her incredibly beautiful spirit, but also for her family who now have to learn a different life.
This week was also a week where so many more lives were changed. Edmonton, experienced what they are calling a terrorist attack. Luckily no one was critically injured but it shook our city to the very core. And then monday morning the world woke up to the realization that so many lives were changed forever when a shooter opened fire on a music festival in Las Vegas, ending 59 lives, including 4 Canadians and wounding countless others. To top it off, the same Monday the world lost Tom Petty, one of my favourite artists of all time.
Amongst all of this, the happy news is that I became an Auntie, with the welcoming of my niece, born on September 11th in Singapore. I have not had the opportunity to meet her yet, but happily receive all of the pictures that are sent.
To add more stresses to the experience, after months of going back and forth, and weeks of serious deliberation, I decided to leave my job at a company that I love and have been with for almost 7 years. While I love the company, I have decided that I needed another challenge, something different, new goals. I have accepted a position at a different company in a whole different industry, where I will have the opportunity to learn a whole bunch of new things, and put myself outside of my comfort zone.
All of this has happened in a few short weeks. Needless to say, I’m exhausted. Mentally, Physically, Emotionally.
So why am I telling you all of these things? For a few reasons. As an excuse to say why I’ve been so MIA over the last few months. Exhaustion has taken over my life. But also to show you that life happens. So many things aren’t in our control, but there are some things that still are. Taking care of yourself is one of those things.
Taking care of yourself can be encompassed in a few different ways. The decision to make this change has ripped me out of a depression. I am sad for so many reasons, but I’m no longer in a state of despair. I feel like there is something to work towards, something to learn, something to challenge myself. None of that has to do with the company that I am soon to be leaving, but just the state that I was in. Sometimes you need to make a dramatic change and see where it takes you.
Taking care of yourself is also about eating well, fueling your body with foods that make you feel good both inside and out and not depriving yourself. If you force yourself to be in a state of deprivation you will only stress yourself out further. On the flipside, If you feed your body nothing but crap, your body will respond in the same manner.
Taking care of yourself is about moving your body. The thing that has saved me over the last few weeks is being able to work out. I have scheduled a workout in 4-5 days a week, plus walking the dog. I did my first unassisted pull up which a very coordinated (…not so much) happy dance followed. Without that outlet, I don’t know where my mind would be. Move your body. It may be the last thing that you want to do, but it is one of the most important pieces to keeping a healthy body and mind.
Taking care of yourself is spending time with people (or animals) that you love. Lean on your people. You don’t need to force yourself to be happy but just be with them, or talk to them if you can’t physically be with them. Those people will light up your life and help you sort out all of the bullsh*t going on in that mind.
Taking care of yourself is getting sleep. I almost always prioritize my sleep. Almost at annoyance to others – I’m that person that goes to sleep early, even when others are ready to party. Being well rested can reset your clock, helps you digest your food better, helps you think better, helps you exercise better, helps you make better decisions.
Life happens, sometimes all at once. But that doesn’t mean that you need to stop.
All the love my friends. To you, to your families, to your friends and to this earth we are lucky enough to spend our days on. Take care of yourself. And those around you.